Our Darling is Now One Year Old..!!!

how time flies.. it's now officially 365 days since i first hold u in my arms.. 365 nights tht we had been sleeping together at night.. 365 days that i nurse u.. 365 days tht is full of joy and laughter.. and most importantly, it marks our first year anniversary as a parent..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to our beloved baby.. Hasif.. we love u so much with each passing day.. i'm going to write u a long letter sometimes within this week.. so tht when u growup, u will read n understand how special u are.. the joy tht u bring to our life..

hasif - 1 day old.. with chubby pink cheek..

2 days old..

1 week old..

during berandoi - right after Aqiqah - 2 weeks old..

1 months old..

2 months old..

3 months old..

4 months old.. tgh musim suka menghisap sume benda..

5 months old..

6 months old.. in our room in penang..


7 month's old.. during our trip to zoo melaka..

8 months old..

9 months old..

10 months old..

11 months old..

the big boy.. at 12 months..

*yawn* mama ni asik amek gamba je..

Mother's Heart

I loved you from the very start,

You stole my breath, embraced my heart.

Our life together has just begun

You're part of me my little one.

As mother with child, each day I grew,

My mind was filled with thoughts of you.
I'd daydream of the things we'd share,

Like late-night nenen and little chillies.

Like first steps and skinned knees,

Like bedtime stories and ABC's.

I thought of things you'd want to know,

Like how birds fly and flowers grow.
I thought of lessons I'd need to share,

Like standing tall and playing fair.

When I first saw your precious face,

I prayed your life be touched with grace.

I thanked the God from above,

And promised you unending love.

Each night I lay you down to sleep,

I gently kiss your head and cheek.

I count your little fingers and toes;

I memorize your eyes and nose.

I linger at the door,

Awed each day I love you more.

Through misty eyes, I dim the light,

I whisper, "I love you" every night.

I loved you from the very start,

You stole my breath, embraced my heart.

As mother and child our journeys begin,

My heart's yours forever little one.

Letter for my little boy..

my dear baby hasif (u can't read this now.. but one day u will sayang),

today is merdeka day.. mama is not working.. public holiday la syg in malaysia. but ur papa is working.. he already has his independance leave earlier this month (for singapore la).. u r sleeping soundly by my side while i'm typing this.. u look so peaceful sleeping.. the weather is fine outside.. but i'm worried u might be cold.. a few times already i tried to switch off the fan.. but it becomes warm.. then i swith it on again.. only to find out that it might be getting to cold for u.. life's like that sayang.. we always worried if we are doing the right thing.. esp if it involves ur love one..

i'm worried sick about u the other day.. to be exact last wednesday, 29 august.. u were fine when i send u off to the caregiver in the morning.. but when i picked u up after office, u body temperature was high..! u felt so warm against my skin.. apparently ur body temp rise during the day.. n u had no appetite for milk.. for one whole day while i was away, u drank only one bottle..! papa normally divided the EBM into 3 bottles.. each contained 4-5oz of milk.. for ur day's supply while i was away.. but that day, u managed to consume only 1 bottle.. no appetite eh sayang.. how worried i was at tht time.. kesian dia demam.. i brought u back.. wipe u with wet towel to reduce the heat.. after papa reached home, we tried to give u ur ubat demam but u refused.. to make matters worse, no electricity tht nite..! of all the days eh.. u slept well that nite, despite ur body heat.. such a good boy u were.. don't want to trouble mama n papa eh sayang.. we let u use the sleeveless t shirt tht nite.. the one tht looks just like ur kain buaian ehehe.. u slept in the cradle instead of the bed cos we were worried tht u might be bitten by those mosquitos.. sad to say, no electricity means no ubat nyamuk.. around 1 am u woke up.. apparently hungry.. by tht time, still no electricy.. n the emergency lite pun dah mati.. slightly dark.. u know hasif, at this age u are not comfortable sleeping in the dark.. i tried to nurse u but u cried.. papa had to go down n bring the torch lite to lighten up the room.. finally around 2am, TNB managed to resolve the power problem.. u were able to sleep back after that, but still no appetite.. u refused when i tried to nurse u.. a couple of times after tht, i tried to wake u up n nurse u but u still refused..

6:40 am we woke u up.. ur body temp is better now.. thanks Allah.. still a bit warm but u looked normal now.. u poo'ed before we went out (ehehe sayang, u have this lovely habit of poo'ing every morning when u just wake up..).. when i picked u up after offuce yesterday, ur body temp was normal already.. i'm soooooo glad.. but u poo'ed twice at the babysitter's house yesterday.. now i started to worry though u stool looked normal.. last nite i woke u up every 3.5 hours to nurse u.. kena minum byk2 kasik cpt sihat ok..

sweet little boy, u made us worried when u were sick.. get well ok.. n always stay healthy.. we love u to the bits..